apathetic heart

Here we go – Apathetic Heart is a song I wrote while I was in Taiwan. I finally had a chance to put it together and record a quick video.  The inspiration behind the song came simply from the fact that my room in Taiwan had no windows so I would never know if it was day or night.. even when it was bright and sunny outside, it was dark and cold inside so it put me in a mood and I thought I would translate that feeling into a song. I was also partially inspired by Kanye West’s song Heartless and I really liked Jay-Z’s Song Cry beat, so I chose to go with the Song Cry instrumental.

Check it! (ps. I am not emo!)

———————–Apathetic Heart Lyrics——————————————-

thinkin back to a day (when i) had a girl id call my own
eager to hear my babe, stay up talkin on the phone
before colors turned gray and my heart faded to stone
i love a lot but i still feel like im alone

it wasnt my intention, to make you a mess and
dry your eyes come close and, we’ll relieve that tension
lot of bad guys and you ask me why,
fuckit, ill let the song cry

reminisce a time when i was so poetic
fast forward the rhyme my heart went apathetic
a simple chick how my heart became sick
this rhymes got me so nostalic

now its so easy, i have so many to please me
touch me, squeeze me, say love me dont leave me
warm body firm embrace, but even while i hold
a numbness in mind thinks my hearts grown cold

had a lot of girls, good girls, hood girls,
rub me in the sweet spot, wanna buy me a rock girls,
every ethnicity i could go down the list,
but in the end, i know im still heartless

sorry women my love has come and gone
except for the one, i’ve written this song
wondering how long, this facade can go on
asking myself if time would right my wrongs

dui bu qi, wo de xin yi jing mi lu
wo bu neng gei ni xin fu, wo de xing yi pian muo hu,
bi jing ni hui muo shu, ye bu hui you bang zhu,
wo bu hui fu chu, baby bu yao zai ku

wo bu yao shang dao ni, wo ye bu yao xiang dao ni,
mei shen me yi, wo zhi chong lai mei you ni
bu guan ni duo xiong, wo de xin hai shi yi pian kong
wo zhi dao ni tong, jiu rang wo liu zai ni de meng

reminisce a time when i was so poetic
please repeat this rhyme if your hearts felt apathetic
like a lock and key, but something wouldn’t click
this rhymes got me so nostalic

(and) it wasnt my intention, to make you a mess and
dry your eyes come close, i guess we’ve learned our lesson
lot of bad guys and you ask me why,
fuckit, ill let the song cry

stapler gun

Hey guys, I’ve still been a little sick. Here is a quick update.

Martial Arts/Stunts
Haven’t been training much because I was sick the past week or so. I’m in a recovering mode and just got the sniffles. Hopefully it will be completely gone by the end of the week.

I helped coach at LA wushu today and I’ve still been staying active training my private lessons. Also got a new student starting next week so we will see how that goes. This sets me in line with my goal of having a max of 3-5 private lessons. I really enjoy teaching, but keeping it one on one – this way I really get to see someone’s skills develop and provide them direct attention and custom training. Meanwhile, it keeps me active without turning martial arts training into a full-time thing that prevents me from focusing on other areas of my life.

Sam called me the past week and mentioned helping her out on a crouching tiger hidden dragon fight set for 8711, but the scene required 2 girls instead of a guy so it fell through. However, I’m sure some other cool opportunities will arise. =)

Film
Finished shooting pick up scenes for Barry Baz (www.barrybaz.com). There’s nothing really on the site yet, so don’t get too excited. However, I am quite excited because it’s been about 6 months since I finished shooting the main stuff with them and they’ve been editing (with the editors from the same studio that edited the Bourne series) and cleaning it up so that it’s a masterpiece. It’s about an Australian that comes to America. He meets me and I am an award winning film maker of sorts.. but I can’t say much more… so let’s just say it’s a comedy and a whole lot more. Should be done within a month. I’ll post more details when it’s done.

Business
Tons going on over here. Continued working on wk mock ups. Created 2 versions that I like right now.. just trying to decide on a layout. Also got the martial arts complete site in progress. The layout is good just need to get the content up there and adjust the color scheme. I filed for the dba and am still waiting on the paper work.

Corporation’s taxes are due March 15, so I started cleaning up my finances. Feels good to really sit down and see everything from a numbers perspective and then watch how it’s grown over the years. I know this is something that I should actually be looking at quite often, but as a start up you worry about a million things and hardly want to deal with the number crunching. Anyways, it’s looking good for 09.. now just to stay on top of things for ‘10.

Other
Major thing going on is that the front porch is finally getting remodeled and getting tile put in because the old material was starting to crack from the rain. Should be done by Sunday.

Also started doing a few fun raps/freestyles/covers if you hadn’t noticed on my previous posts.

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